Hmm..this is my therapy..haha..so bear with me...

I remember watching the matrix reloaded after goin clubbin with the cousins up in the SPC..All this after a couple of bottles of san mig light, a shot of tequila, very cold weather, and a worn-out voicebox after numerous rounds of singing with the videoke machine. I came up with this quotable quote from the architect while trying to down the nth shot of empy.... its goes sumthin-sumthin like this: "Hope is man's greatest strength, but also his greatest weakness.." Wow..very powerful..
Anyway, the past couple of days or so, in light of all the events in my life, I came up with my own interpretation of the passage..

As people, we are often faced with situations where we are tasked to make choices..as imperfect beings, our basis for choices would be gut feelings, because facts do not always present the most obvious answer. Some times they even mislead. So I believe that even if facts are present, one's personal and most deepest feelings control our decision-making. For example, during last november's detroit-indiana brawl, Stephen Jackson didn't care if he was gonna get suspended for going into the stands, he just wanted to help his teammate. That's instinct at work, not rational thinking.

So as people, when we make our decisions, our feelings govern us. And the strongest feeling we can have is hope. Take note this is never grounded on facts or figures, but one's instincts, one's feelings. That's what makes it so powerful. A person full of emotion cannot be stopped whatever the reason presented.

It is a strength, because it is sometimes the key for success, happiness, or any other positive thing. But the irony here is that it is a weakness. Hope can cause downfall, despair, grief, maybe even death. Yes I believe also that hope can cloud judgement, present impossibilities as possibilities, and make one blind to what is really going on.

It is both a strength and weakness? I believe so. But I also believe that the loss of hope is the loss of our humanity, because I believe that hope is what keeps us as humans going, due to the reason that facts may not always be present. In the end, a gut feeling of hope is all we have of survival. Yes, it may be irrational and at times very crazy, but what do we have left if we don't have hope and rationality is not always there?

In closing, hope is always going to be there. It's just a matter of denial and affirmation. In my life, I was faced with a lot of denial of hope, denying to push through, but I know now, based on everything I went through, that hope should be affirmed sometimes. We need to have hope..leave reason behind and take a leap of faith, to complete our lives..

ahhh...so deep...hahaha..