it's my birthday, we gon party like it's my birthday, and i don't give a fuck it's not my birthday!

damn! haven't blogged in a while. haven't had any inspiration....UNTIL...let's just say some loose threads were seen, and yes, the revolution has begun.

it's been a VERY bittersweet week for me..i almost lost the one thing that keeps me very happy, due to my own stupidity and my habit of being quick to pull the trigger. damn! that was very, very stupid of me! i know i should have given it a bit more thought. anyway, i'm glad that episode's over, and now, a new one has begun.

but then again, i got high on my quizzes and tests, and my hope of slacking in the 2nd sem is in full operation! haha!

right now there's a consortium of rage-inducing thought in my head. usually, i just let it out like i don't have a care in the world, but because there are somewhat serious and unwanted events that can take place if i do release the rage, and i don't want that happening, so pure objective reason is the only thing keeping me from turning into the hulk hehe

also, there's this word that has crept in to my usual vocabulary. it is in light of the situation. oh yeah, i've also rediscovered the angst-slash-rage in my writing, as well as learned a very valuable lesson: that i should never assume that chameleons are extinct. whoooo!!

so here's a big FUCK YOU to anyone out there who feels he/she has done something messed up and jaded and feels that he/she deserves to be hit. to even things up, here's a FUCK YOU to those who've made stupid decisions and want to punish themselves for doing so (myself included)


"..all i know is that when i think about it, i'd still rather be me than maybe you"
- Hoobastank "Better"